No Words

I’m sorry, Wonder Ones, Dear Readers, and people who searched “One By One The Penguins In My Backyard Are Stealing My Sanity” and ended up here. I have nothing soothing, enlightened, hopeful, or mature to say today. Nope. Can’t even fake it. And I can hardly type this because of the tears in my eyes.

And here’s a warning to the world:

This is not the time to fuck with me. I am full of rage and I don’t mind sharing it up close and personal.

All I got is something that my No. 6 cat (in order of acquisition), Bibs, gave me yesterday:


You could hear him purring all the way down the hall.

I hope you find your sunbeam today.


31 Comments, RSS

  1. Megan November 11, 2016 @ 2:24 pm

    Oh Vivian, dark days indeed. I’m pretty numb. Oh to be a cat and find your sunbeam. Hope you don’t think it is stupid, but maybe you should just ignore the news and opt out for a while not sure what can be done anyway. You are very fortunate to have all those gorgeous cats to distract you. I feel all mellow just seeing Bibs napping.

  2. deb mattin November 11, 2016 @ 2:45 pm

    I’m with you ! After all the tears and a few sleepless nights, I’m trying to figure out how to fight for what’s right without resorting to , “WTF is wrong with you?!!”

    I bought an art magazine today and plan to escape in the pages while devouring a tub of chocolate from Trader Joe’s. Sweet kitty purrs aren’t a bad idea, either.

  3. Leslie November 11, 2016 @ 3:08 pm

    Be brave…it’s a brave new world.

    Don’t waste your own energy wallowing in bitterness. Despair is the devil’s tool. Keep hope alive! (Jesse Jackson 1988)

    Now our real, hard work begins.

  4. Kirra November 11, 2016 @ 5:06 pm

    So sorry to you Vivian, and all Americans….I think you need to maintain the rage and fight the whole time against his crazy ideas and hateful speech and know that most of the worlds citizens support you! Even if our politicians are spending their time sucking up to the next President no matter who it is. Take care of yourself and your cats too. (Maybe steal Bibs’ sunbeam?) O X

  5. ann November 11, 2016 @ 5:25 pm

    I am sorry you are sad.

    I appreciate you, because you have given me may happy experiences with your blog.

    Hang in there.

  6. Becky November 11, 2016 @ 5:41 pm

    I am crying too. As I walk my beloved dog I find tears spilling down my face. I am friends with an 86 year young friend and we were going to celebrate the most special of days. We have changed our celebration to one of love and friendship. It is more important than ever to fight hatred with love. And just like finding a warm sunbeam…or in my dog’s life squeaking her tennis ball at 7am😱 I feel it is important to look for the joys around us.
    Life is a bitch ….if it was easy it would be a slut…..

  7. Babette November 11, 2016 @ 11:23 pm

    Write to your representative in congress and ask them to protect Obamacare, public education, social security, environment, immigrants and Medicare. Donate to ACLU and Planned Parenthood. Wear a simple safety pin so you will be recognized as a safe person. Reference stories in NY Magazine or Huffington Post. We will not lose faith.

  8. Elizabeth November 12, 2016 @ 6:42 am

    It gets worse and worse – see the front page of The Times (or don’t see it – it’ll just make you weep – MORE!)
    Anyway went to Tea & Sympathy yesterday and ate too much.
    Am holding my dearest friends closer (yes – even the gay ones!) and hugging them – before Pence gets going giving them electroshock ‘therapy’.
    Yes, I will fight as much as I can to keep the light alive
    we are
    thinking of our possible escape routes
    though England and France
    and Poland are leaning horribly right.
    Drink is not a sensible answer but at least it lets one sleep.
    I miss my dog whose fur I could have cried into.

  9. Anonymous November 12, 2016 @ 7:28 am

    Polishing off more chardonnay than is good for me. How many more grapes need to die before this country regains its sanity?

  10. Patricia November 12, 2016 @ 8:58 am

    Is sticking my fingers in my ears, closing my eyes tightly and singing “la la la la” an acceptable option? For four years? Because that’s my first choice.

    Except that’s not good enough. I’m going to have to buckle up and support worthy causes endangered by this bewildering election. I found this idea helpful :

    I’m going to start wearing a safety pin.

  11. jeanie November 12, 2016 @ 9:40 am

    I, too, have cried. And will. And continue to be horrified. And do everything I can to be kind, compassionate, thoughtful, respectful of others’ dignity, no matter who they are. And to reach out in whatever way to show the world that we are not our “leader.” We are better. Each and every one of us. (Well, right now it’s hard for me to write that last sentence because after all, someone was into that…)

    I hugged Sweet Lizzie, listened to her purr me to sleep (although sleep has been brief and fleeting) and throw her toys to watch her chase. And that makes me laugh. When I got her four years ago I had been so very, very sad and couldn’t laugh or smile. But she made me laugh then. And still does. My go-to mood changer. Relish those sun puddles. Purr kids know how to find the best ones. We simply to grieve. And grief takes awhile…

    Meanwhile, I’m taking another watercolor class tomorrow because when I can play in paint the world is a better place. At least my world is!

  12. Kim November 12, 2016 @ 12:29 pm

    Disgust, horror, anger, disbelief . . . I felt terrible on 9/11 but 11/9 comes in a very very close second.

    • Judy Jennings November 12, 2016 @ 11:18 pm


  13. Joanne November 12, 2016 @ 8:01 pm

    Thank you and Bibs for the lovely sunbeam. Soothing and somehow, hopeful. Just what I needed.

  14. Diane Klieforth November 12, 2016 @ 9:27 pm

    Wait-what’s that sound? Oh,yes. Its the sound of millions of hearts breaking.

  15. Felicia November 12, 2016 @ 11:16 pm

    Vivian, you’ve got the right idea….when we’re confused, angry, afraid; sitting in the sunshine and letting it lull us into a nap is the perfect antidote. I’m trying very hard to silence my own fear and anger and to reach for curiosity about what’s ahead instead. I’m a work in progress.

  16. Judy Jennings November 12, 2016 @ 11:19 pm

    Locking the doors, pulling the shades, staying in all winter with my books. Don’t want to see anyone.

  17. Judy Jennings November 12, 2016 @ 11:21 pm

    P.S. Vivian, please read Beth’s blog today. She’s in Philly. 💗

  18. chel November 13, 2016 @ 8:21 pm

    There really aren’t any words for this. My heart is broken AND I’m terrified- usually it’s one or the other when times are tough. Godspeed to all the brave warriors, those inside the thick of it and promising to protect the rest of us. I’m doing what I can, but it doesn’t feel like anything will be enough.

  19. Becky November 13, 2016 @ 8:47 pm

    Babette is right we can fight… the groups that will work to protect rights. The ACLU, Plammed Parenthood, organizations that protect the press. We cannot lose our freedom of press!! We must be and will be stronger together and fight for tomorrow.

  20. Elizabeth November 14, 2016 @ 7:01 am

    Well, we all seem to be agreed on this one !
    I’m still crying!

    • Becky November 14, 2016 @ 7:53 am

      Me too 😥

      • ArtistLady November 14, 2016 @ 2:12 pm

        Me three!

  21. Kate November 15, 2016 @ 12:57 am

    If this is any consolation, our hearts are breaking for you in Canada. We too are in shock and dismayed, and very concerned about the well being of our good neighbors. This is not just a morning after response, dialogue continues here everyday in Canada and although it is not much help to you, just want you to know that we really care.

    • Becky November 15, 2016 @ 7:36 pm

      Thank you for this kindness. We are all so unbelievably sad…..he is such an embarrassment

  22. Bonnie November 16, 2016 @ 2:13 pm

    Thank you.
    Beyond words; distressed in Ohio.

  23. Beth November 16, 2016 @ 3:22 pm

    A week later and I still feel just as devastated. That conversation we had while sipping cocktails about the ludicrous notion of Trump presidency now seems so naive. I feel like I should be sending sympathy cards to half the country. (I did momentarily consider using my grief to convince Z that the only thing that _might_ console me is my very own Scottie dog.)

  24. Deborah Hatt November 18, 2016 @ 6:40 pm

    Well … I can only say, I grieved over this election months ago, when neither major party could come up with any better offerings than Mrs. Clinton and Mr. Trump. I’ve been increasingly dismayed over the media’s failure to “report,” and their blatant glory-seeking, misrepresentation of information, and their continual editorializing. I deplore the behavior of both Mr. Trump and Mrs. Clinton. I have been appalled at their chicanery, lies, mud-slinging, and lack of honesty and integrity. Neither candidate was, or is, in my opinion, worthy of sitting in the Oval Office of our White House. I believe both parties have let our nation down. Profoundly.

    That being said, I am not going to denounce others who differ from me, nor am I going to fall into a “slough of despond” because a better person than Mr. Trump was not voted into the presidency. Why? Well, for one thing, it will neither do me any good, not any one else. Getting mad, calling names, throwing fits, whining, complaining, and sinking into a deep depression will not change one bloomin’ thing, except it will bring ME down. Besides, I’m am American … the majority of states ‘ citizens chose their favorite, so I will respect their right to vote for their choice. I believe the man is an arrogant, insulting, buffoon most of the time, but I respect the choice of others … again, because I am an American. If Mrs. Clinton had won the election I would have been just as dismayed, because I believe she is a liar and a criminal (no offence to those of you who may think she is wonderful). But if she had been elected, I would accept it with as much grace as I can muster … again, because I am an American, and I believe in our process.

    I have yet to see a president make, or break, our great nation. America is not about our president, regardless of who sits in that office. America is about US – you and me, and all our families, friends, neighbors, and yes, even our enemies. “WE” are what makes America great, not the politicians in Washington! It is up to US to make America a great place to live. It is up to our kindness toward others, up to our ability to forgive and move forward, up to our resolve to go-the-extra-mile to help feed the hungry, heal the wounded, and comfort the hurting. So, come on … all of us! I do not want to be considered a sore-loser, a whiner, or only another complainer. I have DECIDED (it’s a decision) to make a difference for good, instead of trickle tears into my corn flakes. As Americans, I hope this is what all of us reading this post will do.

    Like i said, I grieved long ago over this election. I knew I was going to face challenges respecting either candidate, regardless of who won in the end. But I can, and will, respect who is president … not because I like them, agree with them, or because I think they are capable … but because I am an American, doggone it! And I will respect the president for the sake of the office itself. We would be wise to stand up straight, count our unfathomable blessings, and stop acting like all is lost. All is NOT lost! We have more back-bone, more compassion, more determination, more persistence than any other people on the planet, in spite of what the media seems resolved to make us believe otherwise. So, please … all of us (I am speaking to myself in this too), let’s stop moaning, groaning, and whimpering like we are without a hope. How ridiculous! We would all do well to turn off the network news, get off the social media, and get busy actually doing something positive, up-beat, exciting, and praise-worthy. The world is full of sad, hurting, sick, and hungry people … so there’s a whole lot we can do to make a difference in the lives around us. So, let’s get over our disappoint and carry on. After all … like I’ve said repeatedly, WE ARE AMERICANS! We ARE BLESSED.

    From sea to shining sea, We Are Blessed. Let’s choose not only to BE Americans, but to also ACT like Americans. It’s not about getting our own way, or watch out. It’s about working together to make our nation the best it can be! Like any kind of positive influence, it starts with the person I see in the mirror. It starts with me. With you. We CAN make a difference!

    God Bless America … even if we don’t always deserve it.

  25. deb mattin November 21, 2016 @ 3:53 pm

    Just noticed the new blog look and love it ! More personal, more artsy, more fun!

  26. Becky November 23, 2016 @ 12:48 pm

    To my blog friends. I wish you a blessed Thanksgiving.
    I am a follower of the Tao and one of the readings said that after acceptance comes action. I am already in that mode to support those groups and newspapers who will fight for us. In addition , to prayer let us in are own ways stay strong and work so that our democracy stays strong.

  27. Shirley L. November 23, 2016 @ 4:06 pm

    Depths of despair. Can’t yet deal with the horrifying situation this country finds itself in. Tears, rage, disbelief.

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